Post Script-The Power of the bike!
It has been five weeks since I posted about horrible PTSD/post operative depression and hormonal hell that sent me into a spiral I did not think I would recover from. I have the gift of hind sight as I write today. Just as I wrote that living in that hell was surreal, the last five weeks are every bit as surreal. I am astonished that was ever actually me, or my life, when I think back I am equally amazed at how far I have come in five short weeks. I have made it my goal to ride, at least something, every day I am in town this Summer. Some days hard, some days a little spin. Today was ride 31. I have just hopped off the bike after approximately a 60 mile ride. I feel great, both physically and mentally. I am off medication and admittedly, was scared to wean so quickly, but my dosage was so low to begin with, there was nowhere to go but off. There are days I wake up a little anxious or with a slight lump in my throat still and I know if I get on the bike it will be gone. Yesterday was hard for no apparent reason and I argued with friends about taking a day off before today’s big ride. I decided a little spin, with little effort, was the compromise. Today, I am not only grateful that I have my life back, but my life is headed in new directions, since this experience. (http://thetbar.wordpress.com/2011/06/22/when-the-cure-feels-worse-than-the-disease-not-really-but/ ) I am feeling healthier than I have in four years and stronger than I can remember, literally. Life is very good.
Peace, Love and light-always!
GREAT!!!